Thursday, November 11
i didn't know a person could put on 5 kg eating. i also didn't know the same person could lose 4 kg of it yelling at someone behind a door. i think there's something wrong with the weighing machine. today was an okay day. i cannot cannot absolutely cannot wait for next friday. even though my chem and phys are in shambles and i never cared for amath. i really want to get out, get out, and feel the breeze. i want to run screaming in the rain. i want to sleep the whole day away then wake up at night to party. i want to be free. what's freedom? it's not the absence of captivity. i realise a lot of 'pro' or in my opinion, 'white' stuff are not merely the absence of 'con' or 'black' stuff. because i take into consideration neutrality. and this is really confusing so i think i'll deal with it after next friday. hmm two monday's from now we'll go job-hunting.. and yeah trot around in pretty shirts and skirts and hopefully land an okay-paying job so i can go and get everything i need. and here's my shopping list! =D
1. white high heels. jean: this means stappy heels. chris: this means stilettos. others: i think you're on the same frequency as me. and this is a need, because my old ones are getting worn through. and i am vertically challanged. and i wear sport shoes about twice a year.
2. black high heels. ditto above. it's half a want and half a need cos the pair that i have are pretty but pinch a bit.
3. pale pink high heels. ditto above, plus the fact that they have my baby blue ones in a really nice shade of baby pink and i could use it. =D but that's a want.
4. wallet. worn out. coming apart. you get the picture. that's a need.
5. black skirt. remember the type that i always squeal over whenever we're out? yeah well you're right. i'm gonna get it someday, might as well be now. if it's still around. heeee. =) that's a want.
6. silver watch. dressier than my blue one. which i can't wear with anything that's not blue anyway. that's a want.
7. black hair clips. a need. my fringe never seems to fit behind my ear after a haircut.
8. buffer. semi-want. buffing is a neat habit anyway. which i shall resume next friday.
9. mascara. waterproof, so it won't matter what i do, and another protein one so the waterproof one won't dry my lashes too badly. it's a want. i admit it. but hey i'm sweet sixteen, i reserve the right to dress up for special occasions. hah.
i can't think of the rest now, but as you can see, i definitely need a job to support my admittedly high maintenance self. man, i should get a boyfriend. a rich one. i mean, what else are they for eh? but since i'm pro-female, i shall just get a job and treat myself. tadahh. if i don't get a job, don't bother buying any of that stuff for me. except jean who's choped the wallet. in the course of a lifetime, i'd have forgotten i ever wanted any of those. but right now it'd feel about great. =) and.. back to chem.
it must've been love.
10:00 pm
xoxo
